Looking for my raisins, I came upon this realization that we can never get back what is lost.
A dear friend had sent me a poem a few days back, titled 'What We Lost in the Fire'. I do empathize with the idea perfectly, there's no returning, no regaining. I choose not to remain disillusioned for ever. Being divorced from reality, we lead only sordid & miserably hollow lives.
I need to tide over my losses. I choose to reject my plain vanilla existence for something fun & frivolous. Will thus grow fresh raisins. And give them to the ones who truly deserve.
I am looking up and ahead. Ahoy!
I am beaming! With expectations. With desires. And, above all, dreams.
Internet is our gateway to connecting and interacting.
And blogging is a first generation tool built on, and taking advantage of, its unique attributes.
Blogging, of late, has also drawn a lot of flak, a lot of dismissive comments, criticized as a fad that will eventually pass. But until it is phased out by yet another fad or set of fads, here I am playing my role as a blogger.... trying to communicate and share my experiences, my joys & my sorrows, my desires & my despair.
My blogging is primarily devoted to sharing my intimate thoughts, albeit without any intended compromise or malice of any kind. So, here I am.....
Who has my raisins? I wonder, who? Who has managed to Get away with All the sweetness That was the perfect Embodiment of me; My soul had been shrunk Yet all the sweetness Had remained therein In the shrunkened, Midgeted forms, So many of them.. And they're all gone May the world defeat Me and my sustenance, For all I care................. But I want my raisins back!
I may not possess a perfect personality,
I may not be a good friend,
I may not be able to keep promises,
I may not be an opulent,
I may not be charismatic,
I might be lacking some qualities....
But still,
I love the way I am...
I love being a simple girl.
I'm someone filled with self-belief.
I'm haunted by self-doubt.
I've got all the answers.
I've got nothing figured out.
I like to be by myself.
I hate to be alone.
I'm up and I am down.
But that's part of the thrill.
Part of the plan.
Part of all of the things I am.....
I'm a million contradictions.
Sometimes I make no sense.
Sometimes I'm perfect.
Sometimes I'm a mess.